Haven't slept in two days in pursuit of happiness, I am not a Christian but Christmas is a time where I see people spending quality time with their families and here I am stuck alone on the other part of the world.
It has its own advantages too, gives you a lot of time to ponder on thoughts, ones which one can only truely understand in solitude and yet being surrounded by all the people in the world.
For the past two days, it kept me thinking, what is it that I so desperately seek in life? What is it that has kept me longing all that time? And come to think of it, there isn't any such thing.
Our mind has a funny way of working. It doesn't has its own desires or ambitions, doesn't has its own opinion, doesn't has its own satisfaction!
We have come to embrass other people's dreams and ambitions into ours, their opinions into ours, their life into ours!
We are never truely satisfied with what we have, and hence we are never truely happy.
Once a colleage of mine told me about his disabled friend who would give away anything in the world to trade places with him without a single thought of hesitation. That's what struck me! I suddenly got reminded of that talk.
What are my worries and insecurities compared to his? What are my failures compared to his little failings every single day? A nightmare that never ends for him.
And yet I am the one who is not enjoying the moment. Yet hesitant and persitant with my negative thinking. Always hoping for something more.
I guess true happiness lies in stopping for a moment once in a while and reflecting on all the good things we have in life which millions would never get thoughout their lifetime.
Happiness has a strange attitude towards us, it spreads like a wave in the ocean. You passing a smile to a stranger on an ordinary day could make that person happy for the rest of his day and have that blissful feeling and faith in humanity restored. And I am talking from my own experience, as I remembered an ordinary day turned into a memory of sweet gesture from an unknown stranger.
Having remembered all that put a smile on my face and restored some long lost aura I had been longing for all this time. And that feeling just compelled me to do something about it. To write. To come back to this blog after such a long time. Its been like a log of little events, memories and thoughts in my life which I enjoy reflecting upon once in a while, going through each page from the very begining.Appreciating the change and transitions in my life.
Do leave some comments if you found my blog even rarely interesting, one comment can put a smile on a face somewhere around the globe 
Just kidding.
And in case you might be wondering how I managed to think for two days without a sleep, I had a little help from all those movies I rented for the Holidays. So technically I wasn't thinking for two days straight, but who cares right? Its the thought that counts.
On the second thought, its that Pursuit of Happiness that kept me watching one movie after another as this was the only time I didn't think about myself and my worries and went through the emotional rollercoster with the various characters of the movies that I watched. I guess it was worth the effort, having finally concluded to something. 
